Man, I should Keep on writing here, but ...

It's been a long time since the last time i have wrote something here in my blog. And on the top of that, most of those who used to read this had always been asking me to keep on writing, but unfortunately, writing hadn't cross my mind for quite sometimes, and whenever it does (just like now) I dunno what to write about. I am not sure what to write right now, so am just typing whatever gets into my head.

Man ..... I am in my final year as an undergraduate student, and the way I c it: it is almost the end of the life that I have always new until now. This is really scare the shit out of me. Since whenever I can remember, I was studying and I was doing good the whole time. From elementary school, to intermediate / junior-high school, to secondary / high school, and now university, I have always been studying, never done something else! And pretty soon, all that will come to an end and I have to change to a totally something else! I am not sure what to do!!! I don't know where to go after I finish my studies! I have no place to go! Seriously this is driving me mad on the top of the madness I already acquired from the university since the beginning of my final year.

I know that this is not really a cheerful post to resurrect my blog, but to think of it, necromancy never looked good, right? ;)

Valentines Day ... you came to the wrong person, yet again!!!

First of all, to all the love birds that are reading my post, Happy Valentine Day.

Valentines Day ... hmm ... to be honest with you all, I really don't like that day, because it never had anything to deal with me ... EVER!!! And only if I had the chance, I would rather to physically disappear of this land or frozen into a cube of ice and return after it just to let that day pass by as if it never happened. I am not sure whether I envy those couples I see in that day for having each other, or pity them because they remember love and celebrate it only in this day instead of treasuring it everyday.
But this year, it was a little bit different. I spend it with friends whom called me to celebrate it with them. I know the theme of Valentines Day does not apply on us, but it was even better.
For those I was with in Sunway Pyramid, Sunway College, and their Houses, Thank you for being here with me, even though I may have been seen in my worst image in these period of the year (the first three months).

Until I find 'HER' ... Valentines Day is Friendship Day ... for me

2009: Hoping for a change

Before I start, lemme tell you something about myself. I am a person who don't like changing or you can say I am afraid of changing or to anything new to my life. I like to stick to what I know the best or to what I have unless there is a necessity to change, just like me coming to a total strange country (Malaysia) for the sake of pursuing my education to the end. In case that I had to change something around me, I force to adopt to it fast so I can move on with my life, that's the way I survive, so far.

But been here in Malaysia since the 14th of March, 2007, and I went back to Yemen only once in July's semester break for less than a month, made me feel real bored and I want some changes, any changes will be interesting.

The last 4 months of 2007 and the first 2 moths of 2008 were the most joyful periods in my life. In that period I started my degree course and I met new friends whom shared laughter and tears with, they are my family in this corner of the world whom I am willing to do anything for them as long as they keep smiling.

After that, life had become ... lemme say .. COLDER .. although Malaysia has a hot weather 24/7 but the routine there is so cold that will make the sun itself to freeze. I feel like that I have lost the warmness that I used to feel around my friends, the light I used to see in their eyes, and the joyful spirits in their souls. Is me or the Malaysian lifestyle has killed our happiness? If it is me, please tell me what's wrong so I can correct it. I want those days to come back, those lively, wonderful days. I would do anything to bring them back.

2008 had been a year that's keep on getting worse day after day, until I got a minor change in my course, I took a short detour. For August 2008 semester, I was with another group of students coz of some issues regarding transferring from one course to another (from Business Information Systems (BIS) to Networking (BITN)). Getting along with new classmates at the middle of the road was kinda hard coz everyone knew each other long time ago and they already had chosen their partners for the course works, but it was an interesting change to know new people and it was filled up with laughter as well. It reminded me of those old days of the beginning of my course.

The end of 2008 was approaching as well as our exams (which I have talked about in another post). Almost all my friends had left Malaysia including my roommate and housemate. Exactly like last year, I was alone, like wolf. Even the new year eve I let it pass me once again sleeping in my bed. Well, I never really cared about those kind of occasions coz they always give this false hope of the world being a better place. Until the world really changes, I won't give a shit, unless some of my precious ones will look for me to join them, otherwise it is pointless celebrating it alone.

The main reason I am writing this is that I really wish for a major change in this year, coz I can't take to have the third year exactly the same as those a head of it. Malaysia is a country that you can explore it in 3 months time, going every where although most of the areas there look alike and you will get bored after that, so how about 3 years?!!!!

Before ending this post, I want to thank all those who were there beside me, whether physically or emotionally, especially those whom I call friends but to me truly they are more than that: They are my ONLY FAMILY is this part of the globe. THANKS AGAIN!!!